Eyyyy we're back y'all. I can feel the heated brainfog of summer lifting from the front of my mind. Been working on a lot of art lately and allowing myself to actually enjoy what I'm doing fully. I've found less and less games appealling as of late, and have instead turned my attention to my art and my immediate work/life. It's given me the presence to actually fix things around the home that need doing, but it simultaneously can easily lead to resentment if I don't give myself the permission to rest. One thing is for sure: I wasn't built for the heated weather. I can't wait to get out of here, but I've learned from previous lessons that rushing the process isn't the best idea either. Still, this improvement in energy and mood still relies on me to manage my other chronic symptoms to make the most of it. I'm sure my fellow chronically ill folks can agree that this is easier said than done.
These past years I've explored my heart more than ever before. Where I find hurt I try to fill the wound with self-compassion and honest criticality.